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What a mental time to be alive.

The year is up, and although the world is kind of in a strange way right now, for me personally it was an amazing year. Coming to Berlin was a risk, but was the best decision I could ever have made. It took a while but now I can see everything falling into place. And it turns out that the most important people I've found here, I actually met within the first week or two of arriving. I just didn’t realise it at the time.

So this year I had a lot of alone time, enjoyed the dreamy Berlin summer, managed to get coronavirus, played the Berlin streets, released a new song and video and worked on some stuff as part of a new musical project. Releasing That Old Moon and editing together the video for it felt like everything coming full circle for me – the video is basically the journey of the last year and a half for me, one which ended with finding happiness in this mad city.

Right now I have been going crazy in my room for days, just stuck in the weird void between Christmas and New Year where nobody knows what life is anymore. I’ve been painting on my walls and for the first time in about 4 years actually properly listening to music again. Probably sounds weird coming from a musician, but I didn’t really listen to music to relax in my own time. Until recently, I just back into it suddenly.

In my mind I am wandering the sunny streets of Portugal or somewhere else warm. But I know that sadly this dream won’t be a reality for a while longer. I can’t wait for when touring is once again possible so I can drift off and have some more adventures and do some more soul searching. I guess in the meantime I will have to just spend my time continuing to build up a solid home base.

I don’t believe that 2021 is necessarily going to be better than 2020 in terms of the pandemic. Some people seem to think that covid will vanish once this year is up, I’ve just accepted it’s gonna be shit for some time. I also sometimes feel like the apocalypse is really looming, like some real shit will go down and then there will just be a few of us left alive and I’ll be fighting for survival, fleeing into the forest on a Lime scooter.

Hope everyone had some good times this year despite the state of the world, and as always thank you to all those who follow my work - your ongoing support means a lot to me. Wishing you a happy new year when it comes...

Ailsa
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